Continue running

Some times I feel like shutting my self off from the world.
I find the world too crowded, and find too many people
existing without a purpose or a role to play in the world.
I see things happening and I hear words being said but
don't see why...
I hear people say things and then act radically opposite
to it, I see people do things and endorse views in stark
contrast of their actions.I see people filling their lives up
with luxuries before they have full filed the necessities.
There is a race on , no body knows to where but every one
is running.. because every one else is running too.

We are all fighting, fighting our luck , fighting our urges and
desires, fighting with friends, fighting with the love in our
hears and with the love that could not be in others hearts,
fighting with plentiful and with scarcity, fighting things that
happen the way we want and fighting things that don't. We
are fighting opportunities lost, and chances missed. we are
fighting the remorse of impulsive steps gone wrong and the
timidness that stops us from trying to fix things.

So what if you haven't done some things that every one around
you has. Maybe they all did it , not because they wanted to , but
because they were driven by what they saw around them.

I wasn't running at first, but now I am. I don't remember
how it started and how long it would last, but the race is on
for sure. I don't want to fight the things happening in my life.
I don't want to work for things , proclaimed to be "essentials".
I want to pursue the " me". I wanna exist for a propose and
work for a goal. every one wants that and is doing the same.
Its just that i want the purpose and the goal to be my own.
I slow down, but feet are in too much momentum.I clinch my fist,
ready to stop in my track.I prepare my self for the jolt, and brace
my self for getting trampled by those running behind me.
I gather all my strength and ... continue running .